l'anno scorso, capodanno.

2011, I think you're the first year where I'm not exactly sure what my purpose may have been. I'm not sure if that's a good or a bad thing. overall though, you weren't too shabby. I've had many downs, but 100 times more ups. I've lost a few friendships, but I've also had the pleasure of strengthening some old ones, gaining some and meeting new and beautiful people. I lost love, gained it, lost it again but in turn gained a greater love and understanding of myself. I held my first paying job and attended my first college course this year. I got accepted to my first choice college with scholarship money and almost made honor-roll for the first time in my high-school career. I gained a new sense of motivation and confidence. I feel like I got more in touch with myself. and for that reason I think 2012 is meant for me to open up more to the people in my world. showing appreciation and love more often than I am used to. allowing myself, if given the chance, to be vulnerable and truly engrossed in true love. welcoming more people into my life. accepting more invitations and permitting myself to travel outside of my comfort zone when I feel it necessary. in a way, in 2011 I felt like I was holding myself back from truly living. I let a lot of things get in the way of me having a good time. I let a lot of fears hold me back from expressing how I truly feel/felt. I was my own road block this year. everything was so full of uncertainty this year because so much had changed in such a short span of time. me and change never truly meshed well, but I'm getting better at accepting it sometimes. just like 2011, I'm not expecting anything from 2012. my standards are set a little higher though, being as though this will be my first year of college. I am excited though. hopefully I'm prepared too.