I think I'm finally and fully in a good place with this situation. this didn't just happen over night; it has taken some time for me to honestly say that I'm okay. foolishly, I thought I was okay simply by ignoring the entire situation, but something in me clicked and told me that I had to face the hurt and denial head on. I didn't vent to anyone, but I opened up all my thoughts within myself and freely said them aloud. By doing so I realized that I had a lot of pent up...everything! that I was unable to release because of how the situation ended. I've come to understand that you can't get upset because of the decisions someone else is making. you can't focus on that. people will do what they want and there's nothing you can do about it. I am proudly at a point where if I see him, in any situation, I don't feel any fire in stomach...or "hatred". I'm at a point where I feel like I can really be happy for him whenever he decides to get involved with someone else. I feel like I can have a conversation with him without feeling like I'm falling back in like/love. I feel really good. though it's taken me almost a year to get to this place, I got here...and for that alone I am proud.
